i can't wait for speech day to be over..running the whole choir alone with so many things to buy, do and get is really driving me nuts..just imagine every night when i go to sleep all i can think of is 'speech day speech day speech day'..i am hopeless and i bet some ppl will think i am super incompetent in doing such a simple job..sheesh.

9:46 PM

     
as the results of those getting promoted were out today..some feeling of disappointment sets in somehow..it would be fruitful if i got promoted in april and normal if i got promoted in oct this year..however none would be the case..i decided to go and ask my RO about this and of course somehow she gave me a politically correct answer..i think that is wad ROs are suppose to do..n she gave me an example which at that time i was just nodding my head..but after thinking bout it i realise something does not make sense at all..the worst is when some ppl got promoted in oct argh..

in other context..i have been rather down lately..with everything combining into one i think i will break down again one day..for now i just can't wait for speech day to be over..since to some ppl its not so important..book room also want to come and snatch with me..and the worst was when the comment given was 'i am going to fight for the room'..without any backing or support i just walked away..you are heartless..thats all i can n will say..

i am still upset n angry n somehow i think wad i type does not make any sense..slipping further beneath the water

9:49 PM

     
i'm very disappointed.

12:51 PM

     
bonus is in tomorrow..lets just say i'm contented with the amount i'm getting..no complains this time haha..

i initially wanted to complain about something but i dunno whether i should..maybe in the next post..weekend was tiring..finished my marking and went out yesterday..managed to find my soluna cd at sembawang..the whole shop was having 50% discount and i'm glad the cd was the last piece there..imagine if i didn't find it i have to get it at hmv for 38 bucks cause they have to order..at last i only got it for 9.95..wad a good bargain..on fri i went to daily scoops with my sis and i met huimin's sis there..actually i couldn't recognise her though she was staring at me for quite a while..embarrasing haha..then when they left joel entered..he didn't see me and i had to call his name so loudly..chatted with him and his friends before going to cold storage and spending a bomb there on ice cream and snacks..the magnum ice cream offer was the best..2 boxes for only $10.90..original price was $11.55 per box..so obviously i was super excited and grabbed the ice cream like no one's business..and i greedily just ate it..satisfied..

seems like the weekend was full of bargains..but its not a bargain when i spend so much on rubbish..sch is reopening tmr..oh man..worried.

10:09 PM

     
holiday is over..i'm back from bintan in a flash..the trip was quite ok..hotel was nicer then batam actually though its only 3 stars..the activities that we did there caused my whole leg to have bruises all over so my whole right leg is bruised now darn..thats the problem when i landed knees down while jumping into the fishing net from the boat..can't believe how some ppl keep jumping non stop like a monkey while i could only jumped twice!haha..while nvm lar monkeys are meant to show off their skills like climbing a coconut tree and jumping while i just stand, watch and stare..came back on sun night and slept for 12 hrs till i needed to go to sch for a course on monday..and last night i slept for another 12 hrs till today..rotted at home watching all the tv shows..shall upload the pics of the bintan trip when i get them:)

oh just found out that i may get a pay cut..with my monthly income so low already..i wonder why i am still getting a pay cut ar!!!!

8:09 PM

     
i'm back from the prison island..after 4 enduring days of super cold shower and starvation i'm glad to be slacking at home now..i will be off to bintan tomorrow!realised that there are lots of pictures that i have not uploaded at all!!slowly lar..maybe next week when its the march holidays..
i realised gelly has flew off on monday already..was so preoccupied with school stuff that i forgot to sms her..hopefully i will get to fly to melbourne in june, if not i will see her only next year argh..how come sch has so much work to do that i cannot even remember to sms a friend!!

today had staff contact time and of course the agenda was never ending..we got our deployment list and its sometimes i guess its so obvious who your boss likes..as our names were flashed on the screen, arista and i observed someone prominent missing from the list..just as i said, it was very prominent..being a scholar plays a very important role in my hod point of view..not jealous or anything..just that it shows how bias can the boss be when she likes scholars..of course we rant and rant,,when we were asked to give suggestions on how to improve the system, it all came back to one point, will our suggestions be taken into consideration?or is it just ask the general staff for the sake of asking?

from this entire week i have learnt something..there are lots of unappreciative people..of course i'm not saying i am the most appreciative person and that i always appreciate ppl..sometimes i take things for granted and of course that led to someone important disappearing from my life but well i will not be taken for granted and since all these ppl dont appreciate me then i will not do anything that requires me to look like i'm taken for grated again..

wendy told me something interesting/weird in the car today..i think we both found it weird that a person so big in age can still behave like a little kid..let me give you the scenario in a different context..when we were in primary school we always want to go with our best friend for recess..and if that friend goes with someone else, you will be angry and sulking cause you believe that your best friend should only go with you for recess..so imagine now when i am at least 10 years older that i found this scenario in the staffroom!!i was shocked actually..obviously the person is older than me and she always makes another teacher(x) feel guilty that the teacher(y) never call her to go and eat..and y will feel guilty and ask her along..and since then x will always make sure y doesn't leave her out..i found it entirely strange actually when wendy told me and didn't believe it and when i came back from camp yesterday i heard x asking y why she wasn't ask to go and eat..argh..so today so happen i went for lunch with y and she said better call x in case she makes a big fuss again..oh my we are back to primary sch..buddy i'm sure you are glad i'm back so we can go eat lunch again haha..shall leave you with just a few photos that i have transfered to my thumb drive finally haha..



9:46 PM

     
this morning my dressing was a bit plain thus i took the 'water babies' (called by the students) necklace to wear..it is actually a nice necklace with round balls that look like pearls but nicer haha..i was arranging the necklace on my neck and fiddling with it for quite a while..and i accidentally pulled it too hard and it snapped..i was shocked..not sure why but i stared at it for some time..then some memories came rushing into my brain and i just stood there..as i showed the necklace to my mom, she said nothing can be done since its already broken, but i was very reluctant to throw it away..i just left it on the table and left for sch with the horrible 8 periods lesson today n all the teaching in the afternoon..was mentally and physically exhausted when i reached home at 9pm for dinner..

before i ate i saw the necklace on the table again..luckily no one went to throw it away..as i complained to my dad, he actually mended it back for me..of course its not perfect now but its wearable and i'm just relieved that i didn't throw it away..

i think i am just escaping reality somehow..then again as i think i would not agree with the statement i just typed..but i know i am getting better..i should not be so lazy and put up the lovely pictures with all the diff ppl but of course i'm lazy and the marking is pilling up..

sometimes i would envy ppl here n there but for now i guess i dislike UNGRATEFUL colleagues..and i worry for my sis results this fri..i wanna be the happy person i used to be where i'm carefree..i'm just exhausted and dejected..

oh ya i just found out st john's island has no hot water for showering..PTL be prepared for the 1000 calls n sms hehe:)

10:05 PM