Insignificant fRumpY, a BEAUTY of her own kind.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

as i walk into a super familiar sch environment this afternoon, i was filled with different emotions..who would i see?will i like wad i see?well as i step into the back gate, i was stopped by a nice security guard uncle who asked me where i wanted to go..after saying, he told me step by step instructions to the place haha..not knowing that i know the place quite well by now..well i took the lift up and went into the room, not seeing any teachers that i know around and most of the students would have gone home early..i saw my CT inside the room and went to say hi to her..suddenly though i felt super shy to even talk to her..i even forgot where the toilet was and had to ask her..sheesh..

as the workshop was going to start, one of the kid sms me and said she is outside the room..i went out and had a really lovely chat with her..sigh kids from the sch is so different from kids in my sch..it was as if i am talking to someone who is more intellectual and know what she is talking about..then it happened..while talking to that girl i happened to look down and.........i saw him..coaching some sec 4 students at the benches there..he didn't see me but i saw him..even from the super far and high up that i was i could see him quite clearly..and he looks really really really and still good..aiyo can die man..suddenly i was very distracted while talking to the kid and she must be wondering what happened..of course sadly i had to go in for the workshop and the kid went off, and as i looked down one last time..sigh there was absolutely nothing i could do..

during the full 3 hrs of the course, i was quite distracted..of course i was listening and with my CT sitting at the same table looking at me most of the times, well i had to act like i was enjoying myself..she kept asking me how was i..how to answer!!anyway after the course as i went out of the room, i looked down and of course he wasn't there anymore..obviously it was quite late already..while waiting for the lift down, i heard a few of his students talking bout him..my eyes were wide open listening haha..but the lift came and of course i have to go..and soon i was walking out of the sch..

a familiar place that seems so unfamiliar suddenly..sighhh..and i am really missing it lots.

why can't we even be friends?what is wrong?please tell me..

9:25 PM