Wednesday, March 28, 2007
damn..i just told my CT a little lie to protect myself n the other party..did i do the correct thing?!but i'm feeling guilty now argh..its nothig bout the lesson or sch but its related to a person..how how how!!!i feel really bad but didn't want her to find out yet..it will not do any good for her to know..thats wad i think lar..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
on a lighter note i only have 1 lesson to teach today..yesterdays lesson all went some sort ok lar..some naughty kids got major scolding from me while the rest went fine i guess..but for now someone please help me!!haha..
Monday, March 26, 2007
today's first class is known for their super bad repuetation in the sch and it proves everyone right..class was totally wrecked from the start to the end..almost made me cry in the class but i controlled but it was a big mess..it didn't help that some ppl had to argue with me..maybe i still lack class management..wad is wrong..or maybe i'm not fit for teaching..thats all i can conclude actually..the giving up temptation is very strong already..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i think everyone has their own fair share of problems in their own school..i have mine..i think i thought i was not very affected by it until i was telling a teacher about it and i was tearing..luckily he didn't see it if not so paiseh..seriously how am i going to survive all the 5 years of my bond?will things be better?naughty kids, lessons incomplete, teachers, parents..everyone and everybody..hiah..am i up to it..
today is seriously not my day..wanted my CT to do an assessment of me today for sec 1s and 2s then she didn't want and i have not done a single one yet..n she should do this week cause the sec 1s are doing an interesting topic and i planned it well haha..well now cannot..sian..plus my CT said something weird/interesting? this morning..quite irritated actually..basically she wants me to do more than just teach like helping out in the enrichment programmes n stuff like that..the thing is she never even ask me to help her so how am i suppose to know wad am i suppose to help her about!!she commented about the PE ppl and even the home econs girl doing more then they are suppose to do and wad i have the least load among the aesthetics ppl n blah blah blah..hiah just dunno wad to do..dont want it to affect my practicum grade cause i'm sure all these ppl who are so 'helpful' will get a higher grade with their contributions to the sch..i thought we are just suppose to do lesson plans, teach, help out maybe in a cca n not any other things?argh..irritated..then just now she said 2 dumb dumb teachers complain that i let the students out late so they can't complete their lesson on time..fine it may be my fault but they should think that their brats can't even behave themselves and making so much noise how to let them go..argh..i'm sure every class is going to get a huge scolding from me next week because of this..i will make sure of it..yes i'm mean if u do not know by now.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
wednesdays are the nicest days in sch..it finishes at 1pm though there will be staff meeting and the best thing is i only have 1 class!!!feel quite motivated to do my lesson plan for next week so i better start doing a bit today so that next week will be easier and i wont have anxiety attack on whether my CT has read my lesson plan..yay the one and only class will be at 1130am! ok anyway i have been having this thought..i think we are not ready for the working force..i may be wrong but after doing practicum for just a short while and looking at all the other teachers around me it made me wonder whether i was ready and i concluded..nope i'm not..i think there is still many things we have to learn and we are just too young to start..plus we are not teaching any 2nd subject and respect given to us in sch is lower than a teacher teaching an academic subject..some of you may not agree on this but i think in many schools this is quite common..right lynn?studying is so much easier now..when we are studying we want to go out to work immediately cause of all the assignment and now that i have a full taste of practicum i would truely want to go back and study and have my beauty sleep also!!!
i think every morning i go to sch looking like i just fight a war..all dead and tired..how to survive 5 years??!!all these due to the anxiety of waiting for the unpredictable bus and walking super fast to sch with all the kids..ok thats enough ranting..i just thank God i can make it to sch every morning in time..till the next entry..
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
so fast and the holidays are gone..no more late nights, good shopping and going out out when i want to..its back to the school days where 6am is a must and all the rushing to sch..i love yesterday classes..no one gave me trouble and all actually listen which was seriously to my surprise..even the naughtiest class was good..however all good things do not last..totally was a total opposite from yesterday..actually it started quite ok till a class decides to kill everything..having quite a bad sorethroat now actually..n today a class actually thought i was married while another said i was going to get married next year..found that super amusing!haha..i asked them how come they know i was getting married when i myself dont even know..and all they did was giggle giggle and giggle haha..mon and tues are the killer days..2 more classes so going for now and another one later n i will make sure i fly home..can't take it anymore..na na seng you are coming next thurs right?hehe..
Friday, March 16, 2007
Cousin Dawn's wedding ceremony/dinner
on the way there..
the bride and her daddy aka my uncle haha..
the happy couple..wedding held at the arts house
me and booie!hehe..
dad and sis
wedding cake..so pretty!
my mom and her sis and sister in laws
all my cousins..all girls plus one boy..
the tea ceremony that my parents need to be involve in..
dad super eager to give the ang bao haha..
on the way to the dinner..
the only few times i will see my sis in a dress..
the cute sourveniors given at the dinner!!
yes the retarded us..
cousins eunice and janice..
all of us decided to put the bears under the table while we are having dinner so we wont dirty it..
together with gretchen and wynn lynn..
random shot..
being bored..
at my table..and i am the oldest:(
the yum seng part..
yes all our wines..all the kids had them except if u are too young!
my sis almost killed me with this shot..
erm..this is the lighting at the main center area?Mass games day cum road run 2007
our 'well-deserved' medals from running hehe..
my lovely sec 3 kids
not forgetting my sec 1s
haha miss wong (aka miss korean girl) and mr chia
2 good singers in my music class last year hehe
see while running can take photos too!
the 4 female practicum teachers!Friday, March 09, 2007
had road run cum mass games yesterday at west coast park!hehe..was quite fun actually..was suppose to walk with the students and not run..however for the last 5m..me and another colleague decided to run and we were shocked when we were given a number position..we were totally embarrassed..but well the fun was there..had to mark attendance for a class also and its hard controlling a class when everyone is out in the open field and you are screaming at them to cooperate..anyway found some very interesting kids and had a nice chat with them..anyway my face is burnt now..not by the fire but sun burn..took some nice photos which i will put up soon..anyway went for only 2 classes today..not so bad as i expect actually..they are quite guai to my surprise..however going in with a burnt face kids will giggle non stop..but then again all the kids face were burnt too so had to tell them to put moisturizer and stuff..my supervisor is coming later for a courtesy call also..yay n when term 2 starts the time table is going to change so thats great!a good start to the holidays i would say..yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
21st birthday photos!
