Insignificant fRumpY, a BEAUTY of her own kind.

Monday, October 31, 2005

i didn't realise i was so sick until....
i walk out of sch today n realise i didn't know where i was walking to
i think my student mom pitied me and gave me all sorts of drinks and sweets to eat so that my flu will be better
i watch tv n fell asleep which explains i am super tired
my mind blanks out so easily
i didn't know i was having a fever
i couldn't find the medicine

9:10 PM

i walk the path yet i can't run
running will slow everything down
what is going on that it ended up like that
i am just so tired of everything
i want to quickly move on
can i?
i dont think so

so many weird thing have been happening to everyone..

11:20 AM

Sunday, October 30, 2005

i just gave up everything.yes everything n everything
i dont care wad happens already
the sad thing i got sick today
flu fever cough sore throat
so this coming week will be the week of recovery
where i shall hide in my shell
-the care owl has died-

9:15 PM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

last weekend was ok i guess..went to sch for vocal masterclass first then went to my teacher's student concert where the wine was very strong n ya my face was slightly red when i reach the esplanade to meet a really gd friend for dinner..had to eat quickly cause my friend needed to go for the concert..anyway after that i went to meet dear choons to buy something..was really happy to hang out with her..cause i haven been to orchard for some time n its really nice spending some quality time with choons..
i got sick on sunday so couldn't go to sch..
yesterday was bad though..brass ensemble was ok i guess but well my solo piece exam was bad lar..really bad..the whole day i was so scared i was going to faint n luckily i didn't..pontang commuter's concert but had a rather nice dinner with dot,nat,ruth,mr goh,ee wei,alicia and daniel..but i think i dunno why i am eating less and less..argh this is not gd!!
well today is dot's and leo's birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the 2 special ppl..19 years old already but brain got less smarter hahaha..anyway had a cake celebration but no candles sadly..and we gave leo his tortoise t-shirt!hehe..after that went to get some food to eat n came back to sch n slack..had a gd time playing noella's piece..some stress and tension relief i guess..and some ppl who actually dont smile smiled..it was pleasing but it wont last..the atmosphere around sch is so tense..everything needs to be handed up this week..

i wanted to type something out actually bout something that has been happening around but i do not want to cause hiah..its weird and i think well i shall type it next time..

est-ce un mystère pourtant moi shucks i forgot how to type the word here..moi construire pas

8:34 PM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

its strange how some ppl are so weird lar..its seriously like a forest and tree situation..shall elaborate later..

firstly i haven been writing this week lar cause i have been seriously stress..stress until the extend that..monday cried tuesday cried wednesday cried..yes its that serious..then i want to write something yet there is nothing to write cause i can't remember anything that happened in sch?and also cause conducting suxs big time argh..

lots of superficial ppl in the school really a lot

secondly i haven been eating lunch this whole week :) yupz its that bad n busy?so for the past 4 days no lunch but well no choice i guess..

thirdly how come there is suddenly so much work to be done

i think i better list out wad i have to do everyday first for the next week:
-school opera project
-look at the conducting score
-concert portfolio
-harmony presentation
-brass ensemble exam
-concerto analysis
-concerto presentation
-MOA journals
-brass journal
-talk to dr tan bout my critical reflection

this is all i can remember for now i think..lots more to go

on a lighter note: today i was tramatise by someone..the someone said 'move' so loudly asking me to step aside..i was so shocked i just stood there n couldn't say anything..then the someone walked into the lift and said 'hows your trumpet playing going?' 'remeber not to blow too hard or the sound will be out of pitch'..i was so stunned i just stood there..yes so rude but i was in a state of shocked..
then yesterday after looking at the ppl around me i found out something..some ppl can be SO possesive of like their friends..weird but well hello u wont lose your that friend
then today i realise like one of my teacher's character and a friend character is like almost the same or should i say the total opp?it was scaring n seriously i have became more scared of the both of them even more..really scared
today someone lied to me so i dunno whats that about but i will find out
lastly all those 'dumb dumb' ppl out there who keep complaining that they have to sell 2 tickets DO NOT complain to me..i am just helping james to distribute the tickets to u all..if u do not want to sell them u should know who to approach so dont sound as if i am the one making u ppl buy..if u dont sign i will make sure i will chase after u like nobody's business..thats a promise.

6:07 PM

Friday, October 14, 2005

my fingers are burnt!haha not burnt by fire but by the chilli padi!!!darn..my mom was asking me this afternoon to remove the chilli seeds..so i did n i never thought it would be so painful..now every finger has a plaster on it cause the pain is just unbearable!!

today sch was so boring..only had sch opera project..couldn't eat with shu and dot for dinner cause mom cooked but well she cooked fried chicken as well so ya dinner was nice..

argh fingers are super painful so i shall stop here for now

9:46 PM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

this whole week is making me stress seriously..i have been staying back in sch for the past 2 days that i am feeling so drained out mentally and physically..oh ya yesterday we got back counterpoint results..was quite disappointed actually..everyone got higher than me..its not that lar its like it goes to show i didn't study hard enough for it..yes pass is pass but thats not enough at all..these 2 weeks will be the crucial weeks where all our assignments are due..but am i organized?nope seriously not..i can be yet i am lazy..thats my fault..

anyway yesterday tea was good..i haven been sleeping well cause the maid is around but now that she is gone i am scared i can't sleep and it will affect me the next day..yes i am a very worried person now..choons thanks for talking to me it really helped..i think i am a highly distracted person and VERY tempremental yupz.

11:09 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

today is a good day!!!!!!!as in ok maybe i am just happy lar haha..only disappointed cause i couldn't sleep well cause of the maid but hiah its not her fault also its cause i wake up so easily..anyway counterpoint n history was ok..didn't eat breakfast n lunch man..only ate my cup noodles in the locker so well..after history went to gramacy with july,dot and angel..managed to spend money as usual hehe..met many kiasu ppl there apparently..then rush back to do the concerto with angel..do until wanna die..luckily there was a source to help us however its in chinese n with lixin and yi wei's help we would have died..really died..me and angel are just a failure at it haha..
after that i went home with yunqi..hope she is feeling better lar..i realise glenn still has my two part bach invention score n he is not online so i can't ask him for it darn..GLENN QUICKLY COME ONLINE!

8:32 PM

Monday, October 10, 2005

weekends were normal?i didn't go out at all lar..just stayed at home n suppose to finish loads of work but didn't :)..then sun went to sch to do work n after that went to esplanade..met a friend there so well..ya thats apparently my life now..no time for shopping or movies though there are tonnes of movies i wanna watch..

seriously i wonder how addicted can you get to a tv show sometimes..i mean i do like some shows n i will check it out but i wont go overboard..for example..last fri was the final episode of the 9pm show but i didn't fly home to watch it instead i went to liz house to collect my starburst n it was a fruitful time there..real fruitful:)

another thing: i realise woodstock does have a split personality..is one min woodstock can be like the tree that it is and the next min the tree becomes er spongebob ya spongebob..the noisy one..so sometimes i do wonder which is the real personality..its super weird lar..like today but i guess everyone in a way is like that?i dunno i am curious i guess..but woodstock is woodstock and woodstock will forever be the talking tree that i know hehe..

i realise i can be SUPER hyper man..i can even think of things that ppl will never think of like the seating arrangement haha..will i am talking crap cause only certain ppl will know wad am i talking about :)

9:37 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

well seriously dunno what to blog lar..but anyway i am glad a few things have been settled..firstly air tickets have been booked!then we have submitted our application to the uni also so now all i have to do is just wait..but i'm glad everything is really settled..

well sch is sch so nothing much can happen i guess..daily routine of bitching..lunch..schwork..crazy lectures..ya thats about all..

upon reading shu's blog i decided to find my mep pic for her to relieve the memory again..well the pic has been found so shu i shall upload for you soon..

oh ya last sat we went to clark quay to celebrate rach early birthday..went orchard earlier in the day to get rach's present first n luckily i was able to find some nice things..ray hope u like all our presents..and a very early HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!haha..it was fun just catching up..well we had dinner at TCC lar since we couldn't really afford the rest of the food there..choons was really kind to provide the cakes for the celebration..oh ya mx and sc did the reverse bungy..i was actually pondering whether to do it but seriously i am super afraid of heights and that i have a really weak heart so luckily i didn't go..rach also didn't go so like choons said we acted like cheer leaders and stood safely on the ground taking pictures for them..

i seriously have no memory of wad happened on monday to yesterday so well shan't say anything..see and enjoy the pics..courtesy of mx and sc

12:33 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

well ya haven blog in a while due to various reasons lar..firstly i was really annoyed and upset the whole week..i think some ppl just think i am quite stupid lar..like hello there is such thing as the internet to check certain things u know..and why must u lie about something?ok fine i shan't talk bout it..everytime i think bout it i wonder why..is it the attention u want?

anyway on a really lighter note i got my air ticket today..like finally..all thanks to james..but just as dot and i realise..the airport tax has increase again..starting from now..1st oct..HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!well anyway ya as i was saying its cause of fuel prices so i have no choice..but i am praying hard that the increase wont be too much..there is other things to buy also..
some ppl may wonder lar like if i dont really have the money why would i wanna go on a holiday..i bet some of u out there will think air ticket also must get the cheaper one..but thats the problem..yes i have no money but then again i do want to go n take a break..i haven had a proper holiday since a really long time..simply speaking..parents are not rich enough to bring us here n there..no i dont blame them..if i am rich i would be a spoilt brat..so well i save up my own money to go..simple..

nothing much happened in sch i think..just that on wed was a short day n that I REALLY CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF SCH...argh

12:05 AM