Insignificant fRumpY, a BEAUTY of her own kind.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

i've been quite busy doing the various things for the past few days i guess..n its almost done..just need to touch up a bit n my 'assignment' is complete!!hehe..i'm still having the stupid cough n sore throat though..seriously getting on my nerves cause i can't sleep properly!!anyway this 2 weeks will be a really busy week..but yesterday was really a fun day with the rest so well..tataz for now..

12:00 PM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

can't really remember wads going on actually cause i am really sick..my head feels like it is going to break any moment n my lungs is filled with fluid that shouldn't even be inside!!!darn..anyway i just know i have been hving rehearsals lar..in fact the only day i can remember is yesterday when i met up with liz n gen..huimin came later also lar..went for driving n drove at a super fast speed hehe..knocked down poles n laughed like crazy..i think my instructor went mad..then met up with liz n min again before going for rehearsal..i was in quite bad shape lar n didn't know hiah..
i really have to rest but i have lots of errands to do man..i dunno how..everyone wants to meet up this week also n i can't so i have to set aside my priorities n plan darn.

8:09 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005

darn....i am having quite a serious sore throat..the whole night i was in serious pain..hope the pain goes away faster..wonder wad could have caused it..must be too much fried food darn..

1:33 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

this whole week has been damm hectic lar..on monday went for driving at a super early timing 930AM...haha to me thats damm early lar..and i drove at a much faster speed this time hehe..came back n realise i didn't book my advance theory at all..apparently the stupid bitch at bbdc didn't even tell us we had to book so choons and i blindly thought everything was done automatically for us but well..was really really damm angry..wrote a complain letter to bbdc and scolded 2 staff on the phone..they are really damm idiots lar..thus decided to have driving once a week only cause anyway the only earliest date i can ever pass my driving is next year..sheesh such a long date..
on tues went to school first for choir then headed to choons then rach house..HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY mx haha..anyway we ordered KFC and after that went dressing up..thanks to choons for all the cosmetics and helping me to apply them..i think we should do this more often sia..we really have no skill..went out to south bar at liquid room to get a drink..after that went walking at clark quay when we heard live music being performed..we were actually underaged lar but well the bouncer actually let us in..i think the band was really gd..a few incidents there though..there are weird n old ppl haha..shan't really comment bout them actually..we went to another place after the club wanted to close but well didn't stay long cause it was very quiet..we took a cab to orchard n stone but well after just wasting cash to take cab there we took cab back to rachel's house haha..it was fun lar staying at rach house..it makes me feel i am not living in reality but well have to come back home eventually..
yesterday returned home almost dead haha..then well slept i guess..sleep was such an important factor..and today went to teach..realised i didn't bring my wallet out and everything was inside so it was a bit troublesome without cash..luckily my dad gave me some..went to meet rach after that n we found out the mango sale starts today!!!it was so darn crowded n everyone was grabing things as if it was free but well the discounts are really gd 50%!!!after a short shopping trip went home..i want to buy shoes!!!anyway earlier a person from bbdc called me regarding the complain letter i wrote unfortunately i was having dinner so i ask him to call back n he didn't..shucks stupid guy..stupid stupid guy..so well i hope he calls back so i can complain bout the stupid service they provide..

9:08 PM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

well i thought i was staying at home today but well went out shopping with my mom instead n she bought me a belt haha..anyway this morning gelly msg me n we were talking bout going holiday to hk or taiwan lar..so well hope our trip is successful..while going to orchard met daphne khoo on the bus..she was like smiling at me prob cause like everyone knows her so she has to be polite then again i sort of knew her in st margs so well haha..shop till wanna die man..mx was there with her mom also but didn't get to see her..so close yet so far..mom bought her blazar from zara finally..ate the taiwan chicken for dinner only..my mom said the oyster meesua was damm nice haha well..after dinner went back lar..apparently gelly was in the same bus as me!!!argh..just that she was sitting upstairs n i was downstairs..hiyo its called fated to meet but somehow didn't meet haha..nvm i will see her soon lar..i'm so tired..

9:35 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Hui'En has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Hui'En fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Hui'En has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Hui'En just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Hui'En finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.
Something is incomplete in Hui'En's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Hui'En's sexual needs.
Hui'En's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Hui'En that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Hui'En also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Hui'En is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Hui'En's self-concept is artificially low. Hui'En will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Hui'En to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Hui'En is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
In reference to Hui'En's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Hui'En slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Hui'En can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Hui'En will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
Hui'En will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Hui'En believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Hui'En is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. She feels emotional situations very strongly. She'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before her. Then, for some reason unknown to herself, she will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to her. Sometimes, she feels that she can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge her emotional batteries", she will spring back into action. Because Hui'En feels situations intensely, she relates easily to others' problems. If she is not careful, when she comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, she will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Hui'En reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. She may plan everything in detail before she even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through. Hui'En has a strong need for affection. She thrives on touching and being touched. Hui'En desires being told that she is loved, every day. She enjoys being the center of attention. She loves attention, sometimes she even retells stories that got her attention earlier. Hui'En has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because she relates so well to other people. She likes expressing how she feels, what she is doing, and what she plans to do. She is a people person. She will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive her insane.)
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Hui'En doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

10:02 PM

today was suppose to stay at home the whole day but well went to meet min and choons for tea time at coro at the 'wadever cafe'..the food there is quite ok lar for a snack..went to fetch my sis back from OBS..haha she looks so black but well she had fun..then after tea we went to choons house to see whether i can borrow any clothes for the tuesday outing..hiah i dunno whether i will go lar its like so troublesome lar..somemore i am not the clubbing kind..well we shall see lar..

9:35 PM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

driving is so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha..today had my first lesson..n seriously choons n i were quite worried before our lesson even started..our stomach even felt weird..n we were slightly late for our lessons lar that our instructors had to call us haha..
anyway i have learnt a few important words..'clutch'..'accelerator'...'brake'...haha..well first the instructor taught me like the different parts of the car lar then like when moving wad different gears u need to use..it can be quite complicated actually cause like u have to coordinate your moves..n cause i am short so i have to sit so near the steering wheel cause or not my leg cant touch the clutch..n well my left leg hurts from controlling the clutch but well i drove on the main road already..after the instructor taught me the different parts of the car he just stop the car half way in the middle of the road and ask me to take over..was quite scared lar initially but it was ok..haha driving at speed 40/50 is considered damm fast for them lar..n when my dad drives at 100 i consider it slow haha..seriously its fun lar n time passes quite quickly..i like turning the best hehe..n well apparently choons car didn't have enough petrol so i had to wait quite long for her..monday is the next lesson!!
anyway last night went to watch batman with sc,xb and mx..i keep wanting to type badman haha but well the show is quite good..better than spiderman..its like its more mysterious n creepy n dark lar..duh batman is all black n they mention singapore also like batman wanted to get some goods that singapore had..weird but well..dinner was smuggled in again lar as usual..well anyway movie was great driving was great so well..i hope my life is great also lar
i realise also that i have been watching lots of shows where like the girl will wait years for her guy..yesterday in batman also argh..n the new movie coming up also will have this kind of plot..is it a sign that i may have to wait damm long also lar..to think of it its quite funny lar actually..n just now on first moms the gal gave up the guy she likes to become friends hiyo!!!!i was like huh again when i saw it lar sheesh..

9:07 PM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

arghhhhhhhhhhh after typing one whole entry the com had to restart n everything was gone..
anyway as i was saying yesterday trip to school for choir sectionals was a waste of time..it wasn't a complete waste lar cause we did manage to practice among ourselves but its like wads the use of practising when on sat when we all get together for the combine there is going to be lots of mistakes again argh..all the guys turn up though to have their own practice but the girls were pathetic lar with 4 altos n 3 sops how to have a gd practice like that..hiah..but well luckily minyu n yunqi were there or i would have died of boredom..after the practice went with minyu to have her early dinner before heading back home..
came home to an super empty house..dad wasn't even back home..haha just slack eat my snacks n watch tv..so sian lar my sis isn't back..can't wait for fri..well whole night was just spent on playing my restaurant game which i lost argh..so well replay again..min came back last night also i think..not so sure wad time but well..
anyway while watching a korean show last night i came to realise something..in every show that i watch which has a plot like this 'girl likes guy..guy doesn't like girl'..as in this situation lar there will always be another guy like the girl's best friend who will be always there for her one n she will end up with him haha..is like huh..n it happends in almost every show i watch..i wonder does it happen in real life also!?

1:25 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

my sis went for OBS this morning n seriously surprising i miss her lar..is like there is no one to bug at home already..i can't possibly bug my parents rite haha..last night slept super early lar but was interrupted throughout the night n day haha..n this morning my sis left with her friend hiah..sian..
anyway went to meet my mom for lunch in the afternoon first..not bad lar the food at zion rd hawker centre..apparently the man selling carrot cake is deaf i think so u have to point at the picture..n he looks like a nice guy n the food is good haha..well reason why i met my mom for lunch was cause she wanted to go get a blazar from zara n she wasn't sure whether she should get it lar..haha luckily she didn't get the one she originally saw cause i saw a nicer one n its cheaper..there was a very nice one but it cost 215 bucks so well mom not prepared to pay so much for it..anyway the piece they had had a stain on it so they took my contacts down n went to check while we went off first lar..seriously the service at great world is tonnes better then the one at liat towers..no wonder all the clothes i buy comes from great world haha..
after that rush down to meet choons..i was early again!!haha..while waiting for the BBDC bus to arrive we were looking at all the ppl taking driving lessons..in fact its seriously scary lar..somemore all the instructors are ah pehs..hiah..i got my PDL already like finally haha..the stupid woman at the counter was being a bitch lar..call me and choons to read some eye sight test n the stupid prob was the letter was so darn small that i can't see anything..even with my specs i can't see argh..n she was being a irritating bitch bout it..i hope i dont need to see her again..we headed off to daniel's ng driving place but it turns out no one was there n the place was super intimidating lar..we decided just to call him n well we have an instructor now!!yes lessons will start this thurs n choons n i keep thinking whether we should have an english name to give the instructor..i think we most prob will end up calling ourselves 'jassica' muahaha..
we headed off to town after that to see some stuff..choons bought a soft nice bag haha..then i had to go to my mom's office to send an email..yes an email which she doesn't know how to attach pictures hiah..took a cab home n dinner was nice..but its weird without my sis around..i can't wait for fri to come..
from this week onwards bukit batok/bukit gombak will be choons and i 'FAVOURITE' place..haha its like we will be going there so frequent..even my choir rehearsals on sundays is at bukit batok community club so well haha..crap

8:44 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

oh i forgot to mention yesterday when i finish teaching n was about to head downstairs to go off i met the girl's neighbour n she was like having a casual chat with me lar..n she thought i was from CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i was like 'huh'!!??hiyo do i look like i am from that country?i am not against that country lar but to say i look like i am from china!!??eeeee....its an insult to me haha..

my sis friend came to our house last night..whole night couldn't sleep cause of the sleeping for over 3 hrs in the afternoon..then my sis lar another one make so much noise..woke up this morning n almost wanted to die..went to all the different fish farms again n my mom bought the live fish she wanted to get..i realise my sis is damm funny lar..her friend is in our house n she doesn't really know how to entertain one..she just leave her friend alone sometimes..bad social service haha..poor girl..
i'm so tired i hope i can sleep tonight..

4:21 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

i'm sick now shucks..all because of the stupid weather..woke up this morning with a terrible headache but went ahead to teach lar..came home n slept for 3 over hours..n strangely i am feeling sleepy again haha..
yesterday went to my mom's office the whole entire day..seriously wad i do there is unnecessary work only lar but dunno why she still wants me to do..waste time only..its not like its major important stuff argh..last night a funny thing happen..while talking to choons bout driving i decided to go search the web for private driving instructors n wad happen to be just for fun ended up in us being interested in a particular private driving sch haha..their services are quite gd i would say..so well guess we are going to head down to the place on monday to have a look first before committing anything i guess haha..
sis friend coming later to stay over so as usual lar mom went into the 'must keep the house clean' zone..shucks..its only a friend not a vip argh..

7:34 PM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

so many things can just happen within one week n it suxs..to keep it simple n short i shall just summarize everything lar..apparently last thurs my cousin fell 3rd story from her school..i was damm worried lar cause i was outside watching a movie with charlyn when my mom told me..n its like 3rd story so damm high..but well she fractured her back n her both legs ankle are broken..she had an operation yesterday lar so hope everything goes well..somehow i dunno how the accident happen but it doesn't look so easily like she just fell..i was damm worried for the first few days initially man..
then on sat my sis showed my mom her report book n there was hell at home man..i decided to help my sis defend lar cause seriously my sis studies damm hard n stuff n my parents think she still did very badly..hello if passing every subject with 60 plus marks at sec3 is lousy then i think ours is considered beyond hope already..so damm pissed with them that i started crying instead..so embarrassing lar..went to the bus stop cried..even in the mrt i cried..stupid shit..dinner that night at the outdoor esplanade was weird lar..the atmosphere was weird also..n the food tasted funny..still call themself one of the best in singapore..
on sun my parents pretended nothing happened the day before n took me and my sis on a shopping spree..so weird but of course this is called dont miss out on a chance to buy things haha..
i think mon i went to my mom's office sianzzzzz........
tues went to sch for choir..dot n nat were not there..i was quite bored actually hiah..n i was being ignored by somebody lar..watever lar..i have decided not to.................the sentence shall continue by itself haha....
yesterday was great!!went to watch mr n mrs smith with choons n xb..the movie was quite nice but apparently i chose the wrong seats n it was damm cold lar..even if i say cold means its really cold..i seriously believe my brain was freezed for a few hours sia haha..xb left her hp in the cinema n realised it only at topshop..wow panic sia..rushed back to see n luckily the hp was there..stupid sweeper didn't allow us to go in n i was complaining to the security guard..n a stupid man thought me and choons were trying to break in like that so dumb..i dont think i wanna watch the same show twice consecutively..we met mx on the streets also..see you soon gal!!then i met crystal n she was with christina n i didn't know that..cause christina to me is like a outgoing person who is like super cheerful those kind yet the girl i saw yesterday was nothing like that thats why i can't recognise her haha..we wanted to eat marche but ended up having nydc haha..we were contemplating whether we saw bee khim n it was cause i msg her last night n she said she only saw xb damm clearly haha..so well..anyway i bought my mango skirt..cost 60 bucks which means i can't anyhow spend a lot this month or i will be broke..kept thinking whether to buy but well i got it already n my mom said its nice muahahahaha....
i realised i like to eat beans..any kinds of beans that u put into the soup n boil one haha..it was like today for lunch we had soup n there was yellow beans so i literally took all of the beans inside the soup haha..it taste nice cause its soft n well just say if u like carbo u will like beans i think..then again i like carbo except rice unfortunately rice is something i have to eat everyday argh..

1:28 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

its really funny lar..when u look at some buildings in singapore u wonder why our sec schools compared to them look so ugly..i remember when i was going to serangoon on sun with my dad i pass by the french sch and the australian international school..i was damm amazed at the french school lar..its like so big n so modern..seriously comparing to our schools in singapore there is no comparison at all..our schools look like HDB flats comparing with huge big bungalows..i was quite disguisted lar..

anyway this afternoon decided to go to my mom's office..just came back not too long ago man..did some admin work in her office..seriously i was telling choons if i lose my job as a teacher one day i think i can work in a office sia..as a admin person only lar haha..then my mom had a meeting at night so i had to wait for her..was stoning in her office sia..wad a long n weird meeting lar..oh ya had a chat with xb while i was in the office also..dinner on sat night has been fixed and confirm all thanks to xb!!!!!!hehe..

9:57 PM

starhub cable really has a huge problem man..its like i can access the net at a certain period of time only..holiday has only started for a couple of days but its already so boring lar..
anyway on mon went out with wice to get my piano books then we went to watch monster in law..the guy is quite gd looking man after seeing him for quite a no of times haha..this kind of guy is not those where u see instantly n you will like one..i think next time i dont mind marrying a doctor also sia not bad profession haha..after the show went walking round until my legs almost couldn't take it cause i went swimming in the morning!!it was damm fun lar..me and my sis were the only 2 ppl in the pool so we were like playing n swimming hehe...got sun burn sia..

yesterday went back to school for WASBE choir..ok lar the songs are nice but after a while i got slightly bored lar..after that nat n dot went to the esplanade..didn't really wanted to follow them lar so went home instead..last night couldn't even use the net cause it decided to not work..n i slept at 5am only..super dead tired now..couldn't sleep even in the morning..dunno whats wrong with me!!

i dont think i will be going anywhere today unless i decided to make a trip to my mom's office but i am quite lazy so see how haha..

12:36 PM