Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I RESOLVE TO:
DO ALL MY CRAP WORK THE LAST MIN
TAKE EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED
COMPOSE PIECES THAT I WONT LIKE BUT OTHERS WILL
JUST HECK BOUT EVERYTHING
HATE THIS STUPID SCHOOL EVEN MORE
sucks lar..anyway last sat night was a total blast..out with min,xb,mx and choons to celebrate her belated birthday..hope she likes her present n that she will have patience reading them haha..on sunday had to teach lar then studied orchestration at home..on monday..had orchestration exam which was half good but half wsan't haha..dunno why lar..i think my stupid life is so caught up in this stupid school..did i really make a wrong choice in coming here?i also dunno..but my nie lessons are nice..seriously i can't even think wad i did on mon only knew i came home super late lar..
today had compo exam pieces the whole day lar..was quite happy in the beginning but at the end it totally just suxs lar..should i type it here?its like i finish my piece early n i got this kind of results..i will aim to finish last min next time..
Friday, April 22, 2005
this whole week has been simply crazy..really really crazy..i just can't stand it lar..can't even update properly cause of stupid work in sch..but wekk i shall see wad i can remember..
last sat:went out with min and xb..had a really gd time lar..went walking round..talking crap..really really good to catch up with both of them..its like i can enjoy myself without having to feel the stupid stress of sch..then again i remembered i had to teach in the afternoon n it totally killed me..
sun:went out to dunno where lar..went to the hospital to see my aunt..then went to sch cause got harmony project meeting..more or less it was completed..then went back..parents called n decided to go biopolis to eat cause our kitchen sink got clogged up so well i wouldn't mind at all having dinner outside haha..
mon:went to sch late yay!cause no more choir..well there was an orchestra concert at night n it was quite nice..stayed in sch till 11 plus cause of harmony project..simply speaking someone didn't really do his/her work lar n i got upset over it..cause its last min n i simply hate last min work lar..claim to have done but nothing was done..n its like the extend of the whole group..ungrateful bitch..anyway but it was fun lar having nice ppl around cracking jokes n lightening up the atmosphere..
tues:harmony presentation was ok lar..other groups did quite nicely also..anyway had keyboard harmony exam n i was actually quite pleased with my results lar..but that led to some misunderstanding n i was accused wrongly but its all settled..the amount of times i cried in these past 2 weeks ar is simply beyond my limit..i dunno why..prob is the stress of my school n stupid work..so so crazy lar..
wed:orchestration was not bad lar..then did some work i think..went for platform which was quite nice then ensemble training in the afternoon almost killed me with the amount of conducting i did..seriously i realise i cannot conduct..i just simply suxs at it..can't even count beats properly..haha see thats the difference between instrumentalist n pianist..we may be able to play well but our rhythm just suxs so badly haha..
thurs:had methods of analysis which i learnt a bit of things..harmony projects were ok cause i fell asleep..had lunch at brash basah before heading to nie..lesson was ok lar..some parts i fell asleep i guess haha..went back home later i guess
fri:n today finally!!!went to sch for history sianz..rehearse the compo which didn't go quite well actually cause i realise i compose a piece which was difficult..went for lunch with shu after that..nice lar spend some time with dearest shu haha..went back n practice piano like crazy sia..its like the atmosphere was there..so i just practiced until my back was killing me then i really needed to stop..seriously i think i did something to my back that causes the injury..waited quite long cause i put my bag in the music tech lab n watson was there so well..went home extremely dead tired..i'm seriously worried for my aunt lar..its like she is writing a will now..hope nothing happends to her..
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
i cannot be happy for a few minutes over something that i gladly achieved with someone saying i sound sacarstic..watever lar..shall explain n update later...going half blind now
Saturday, April 16, 2005
the misery of our stupid sch has caused many of us to be in tears over these couple of days..seriously adams really suxs..say he is doing something but i know he is doing the minimal..and some of the lecturers are torturing us like nobody's business..sometimes i think if they were the student they would be the ones who cannot make it..
anyway i hope angel is feeling better..its sad seeing her looking so pale n stress..
its like after going through all these stupid ordeals in sch that u really know who are your gd friends and who are just plain busybodies..
oh ya after looking at the concert pics in angel's blog gallery i realised something..i look like a small little kid sometimes..so how!!is it gd or bad i dunno..already 19 n sometimes still looking like a small kid?i seriously dont think thats very gd..then again i can't do anything bout it..its called looking young haha..but the concert pics are really nice..
seriously quite happy i finished my compo!!its like one load is off my mind..finally after so long..but well there are the whole pile left to be done..yesterday went to the pathetic sch for 1 hr only..then did work i guess until bout 3 plus..was late when the piano tuner came darn..i seem to be always late in doing things now adays..
and today went to teach i guess..going to teach soon again then later going out with min n xb..can't wait for that..thats the only happy thing in the week i guess..
Thursday, April 14, 2005
after choir performance
oh ya i forgot to say..today didnt have NIE lesson thats why can be so free to stay in sch..and also dot composed a really really nice song..i want a copy of it!!!!!
never felt so down going to sch before..didn't get to me until today where everything was let out..i think i was crying like some girl who was dumped n cannot get over it but well i wasn't lar..nothing to do with relationships at all..everything is stupid sch..today didn't start off well..firstly miss ho only msg me so late to tell me that the venue is at ucc n its at 845 not at 8..and considering the time i slept yesterday i sure would have wanted more sleep..yet had to wake up at 630 this morning..luckily my dad drove me there..met with the person in charge..then it was time to conduct..seriously the cast suxs lar..not cooperative at all..somehow they just reminded me of the lazy types..n some acted superior..ignorant bitches..well while conducting halfway apparently there wasn't any more space in the digi cam so we had to stop i guess..no point continuing anyway..wasn't really upset lar but just dissapointment sets in..luckily there was sebas to drive us to sch..totally miss tutorial..went to see dr kan bout it n she gave me the stupid attitude face of why i didn't attend..its not say i didn't want to attend lor its cause of the recording n the time difference..argh..then dunno why i just totally break down lar..the stress is getting onto me..thanks to nat,shu,joy,dot,lynn n the rest who were there n concern for me..i'm ok now already..just feeling under the weather i guess..i was stoning for bout 40 mins of harmony..didn't know how to do the work..also had no mood lar..its like i was so lost..just sat there n stone until answers came haha..then did somemore work before going for lunch with dot n charlyn n followed by nat..yum yum the food was quite gd lar..went to the photocopying shop n waited for the project thingy to be done as it took damm long lar..went back to sch did somemore work n home i guess..this stupid woman who was sitting beside me kept knocking her head into mine..i think my head is filled with bruises haha..
anyway charlyn:you will be fine after a period of time k..just endure during this crucial period..
oh ya yesterday concert was a total blast!had orchestration in the morning first but wasn't really in the mood for that lar..its concert day!then had chamber choir practice..too late to go for music platform so skip!went for lunch with dot,nat,chiew,darius n angel..after that rehearsals all the way from 2-5..quite fun in a way lar..went for dinner with dot n charlyn after that..had a nice talk with the two loveable girls..after that went back n changed for concert!!didn't invite anyone lar since i know they wont be interested also..oh ya st margs band got GOLD at SYF..did really well i guess..concert was really fun lar but my legs were aching so badly..its like wearing that stupid black shoes for hours!!then took a few pics after the concert n actually was deciding whether to go have a drink with the rest or to go off but luckily i went off..was super tired lar..but its really a gd time!
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
i got kinda curious n went to watch this show 'missing' on channel 5..partly cause i was bored also lar..its really interesting to think how ppl can just go missing like that..many i think dont have much of a reason or choice..just like the man who went missing in 1986..its super scary lor..n its like 19 years later today he is still not back home n his family somehow hopes he will return..i guess personally i never encountered something like that before..not that i want to lar but i think if i did i will damm freaked out n worried also lar..but really sia..where could these ppl disappear to that is so hard to find them?
i remembered my cousin ran away from home for quite some time actually..in a way i dunno why no one was particularly worried except for my grandparents lar cause he lives with them but strangely we all weren't..then one of his friend found him working in a fast food place a few months later n ask him to return home which he did..but well its different i would say?
anyway today i went to sch feeling damm weird lar..its like my mom had to drive me to sch today n i realise how slow she drives..late for dr kan's lesson but well some ppl were much later..then i got highly irritated at some things..is like when u are committed to some other stuff suddenly all the pile of work that needed to be done is thrown to me..n seriously reason why that other stuff is more important its cause someone was once part of it one..its not say u are playing the super solo part lor..n according to sophia its like only a few bars n its super easy..knowing your sight-reading skills i dont think u could not have done it..argggggggghhhhhh
worst still i felt damm sick lar..i skipped half of her lesson lor..after that went for harmony which the whole class sort of got a scolding lar..in a way its gd for us..its like to wake us up on taking things for granted..so far all of us are living in a live where we expect things to be done OUR way..well i agreed with mr yap over certain things lar of course..anyway after that went for lunch with charlyn..hiah sometimes getting attached can give u so much problems..after lunch went for keyboard harmony..got teased by mr goh again bout the 'twin' guy in my sch..then again its not like he is super charming or wad haha..after that stayed to do my compo..all the notes are done!!!yay..just need to include a title,phrases n dynamics..so all ppl out there..can u all help me think of a gd title..i want a word title n its like to differentiate between fast n slow..can't think of a gd word now to use..
after that went to get dot's shoes together with nat..then rushed all the way home only to find out the student is not coming today..argh..should have stayed in sch longer then i could go n pay my bill's also..now all that is not done..darn it..
anyway..tomorrow is the choir concert..somehow this year feeling is different from the previous years..its like we are not fully prepared..most of the yr 1's just heck bout it..the double chorus work sound super horrible..due to some ppl in particular not singing also..then again not say their singing will help lar..seriously all the previous singers,ppl like us should just sing n the rest just back off!well we shall see how it goes lar..there is still lesson tomorrow morning..i hope i dont faint or another scene of embarrassement...
Sunday, April 10, 2005
super contented today i guess..went out with my parents n sis in the morning which they attempted to buy the whole of carrefour..dunno why they spend so much today lar..i realise a shop in suntec has the most 'aunties' vcd there is..anyway last night my toe was super pain while i was sleeping lar..i could feel it but i seriously thought i was dreaming..then this morning woke up n my feet couldn't even move..was damm worried lar..then i remembered..i have ingrowth toe nail problem again..after washing up quickly went to put the cream..luckily i still have it..was having problems walking at suntec but at the end it was quite ok lar..i dumped everything i wanted into the trolley..after a damm long time there, my dad dropped me in sch..did orchestration work n compo..seriously i'm glad i finish orchestration..then compo at least the melody is almost done..was really glad..i'm just glad lar..oh while walking out of the mrt today a stupid guy had to step on my that particular toe..almost screamed!!haha..tired now but well..slightly less worried hehe..
Saturday, April 09, 2005
it suxs lar..i have been so damm busy so no time to update i guess..tiredness is all i can say..then these few days never even go online cause my wireless card couldn't be fix but now all is possible n my house has a nice wireless acess com!!yay..damm happy lar..new com everything n stuff..but these 2 months will be super super sucky..work,projects,homework,all the rubbish crap will be needed to be completed n exams will come n ruin my life..ya exams part of everyone's life..damm sad..
yesterday had a really gd time with mx,choons and xb..first thing was to trade our 'aunties' dvds/vcds haha..then walk round n went to eat as usual..had billy bombers for dinner..quite nice lar was damm full..i think my tiredness gotten hold of me at the end..at 10 plus i was so tired that i think i talk lots of rubbish haha..then went to shaw there to eat the hk desert..hmm..not bad lar i would say..started to laugh hysterically at some things..i think i was damm damm tired lar..finally took a taxi home with sc..n i knew it..before i could even reach home my dad called asking where i was..cause mom was in KL haha..oh ya n xb commented her taxi was like a sauna..wondered wad happened..today went to teach..damm irritated lar..but nothing could be done if u have students like that..then came home n another one came..i think this is the never practising week sia..my dad was another one..keep snapping at me for no reason..its not my fault that starhub didn't give him a permanent email account unlike pac net n singtel..then so old fashion minded..dont wanna use hotmail cause u need to go into the webby..type your password before getting in..instead..outlook express one click n everything is there..hello just learn lar hiah..n i realise i get upset so easily..darn..my life is so screwed up..must go watch spongebob soon to cheer me up..
